Yes, this was the hardest thing for me to do with Gene because I wanted to be with him all the time, but I knew I had to take care of myself. Even if I wanted to take a five minute break and just go walk around the block, I didn’t do it at first because it may appear that I was NOT doing my job or I didn’t love him.
As the journey continued, I knew, I had to get over this feeling. He might need a reprieve from me too! Thank goodness my parents lived close by so I could call them to come over and have Dad stay with him while Mom and I would go shopping or even go to the grocery store. One time when Gene’s son came to visit, I allowed myself to go see a movie just to get out of the house.
There were times I would call some of my girl friends to have lunch with me. This was fun because I got to feel “normal” again and feel human. Once again if the inevitable happen, I had no control over this…and would feel this was the way it was supposed to happen.
Give yourself a break and rid your thoughts of the guilt.